i look out the train window and see only a single car in the graveyard and one guy standing nearby, staring at the ground, holding a bouquet and holding himself, a still life with far more stillness than life. and i get to re-reflect on how lucky i am--nearly all of my loved ones are still with me. friends, i've lost one in my life. relatives, i've lost only the ones i don't know very well (and i am blessed with more friends and more family than the average fool..) i guess you can't be lucky forever, statistics say that my friends circle has gone too long--we're way ahead of the
MTBF curve, but i'll keep hoping that shit doesn't happen. success!
inbox 172 is the best it's looked for months ande a hundred smaller than when i started working on it two hours ago, but all of those 172 deserve action, further thought, and likely some reply (some from as far in the past as 2 years ago :/). it probably speaks to something about my involvement in LJ that over a hundred of those (mostly older ones) are LJ comment threads to which i intended to reply to with some depth. i count this as a failure, but hey, i can fix it anytime, right? i can stop drinking anytime, too...
serendipity in austin meetups has been intense. i've seen a lot of folks i came to see--
chicafantasma,
jessimonsta,
shaynabelle,
missingwatch,
rondanskin,
meredith_mccraw and was my first 36 hours or so, and the serendipity was finding that a long-known and little-chatted acquaintance is
growing an orchard--so i stopped by with jeff between a couple of social obligations and found some encouragement for doing this whole tree-growing thing on the cheap and easy--just try a lot and stick with what works. hopefully
toasthaste will help me formulate a slightly more in-depth plan.
additionally i got a bonus meeting with
xomox and
shubbe while i was wandering around campus killing some time. it's always great to see them even if our paths are so-far separated for the most part these days!
thenn there was some dinner with
green_pheasant and missing of
linearb who was scheduled to be there with us, but we caught up with him later on, so at least there's that! then what was one of my favorite events of the whole trip, a couple of hours of heart-to-heart talking with my old writing group (incl
audissius,
deannaroy, and
signor_ferrari, capped off nicely at
sheilagh's solstice festivities where i got an hour of the
squeak and
xacat show (plus of course
sheilagh and others i never managed to connect with in my post-
silverchat days, like
litch). tuesday was a lot calmer until the evening, which featured a highly nonsuck happy hour with the old (what, 10 years now,
bermanism?) DRK101 crew, in which we roped in
sheilanova plus some others who are always great to see and get drunk with...
weds was largely friends older than LJ (i met gavino, scott, and jeff in 1994. holy crap.), relaxing and eating everything i'd so far missed (barbecue and blue bell for the win!) before a nice relaxed evening with
chicafantasma. we dined on breakfast tacos this morning and realized my credit card had been left at the bbq place, and then i got on the train anyway, cos it was leaving. ohwell. stage 2 of xmas trip, with $5 in my pocket and nothing more. we'll see how this goes!
next time i should make a conscious effort to meet up with more of my rarely-seen friends whom i miss a lot--
bigreddot,
bikers_are_hot,
neutron,
mr_skullhead and the GYMO crowd, plus the
nucleartacos crowd, and more. fortunately next time is soon--see you folks in march, i hope!